If there were a class you wished you would have taken in your school career, what would it be?
Maybe going out for the baseball team or for girls volleyball?
I know I wished I would have started violin lessons in the sixth grade. I had just moved from a farm where the local school was in a town with a population of 500, to living in city of 10,000. I was also going from public school to private. I was so scared.
So when the tour of the new school revealed there was an orchestra, I was dumb struck. Too scared to start lessons then for the violin because the others had been taking lessons for a couple of years. Too scared is all I was.
So after four kids and a divorce, about 15 years ago, I restored my grandmothers old violin and took lessons. It was hard to find time to practice with all the kids at home like they were, so I stopped the lessons.
Maybe I should start those up again? YOLO
So what about you? What were you too scared to follow through with? It’s not too late.
I’ve never liked attention. I stand in the back. I’m the last to walk through the door. I’m late for things so I can slip in. I stay quiet until I know someone.
I’m tall and blonde so I’ve gotten my fair share of men’s looks. Most of the time it made me feel uncomfortable and I certainly noticed when they stopped looking a few years ago. But for the most part, I’ve found the lack of men’s attention nice. Not all women feel this way. And, I sure don’t have life after my kids figured out yet. But, there has been something happening that is bothering me more than not being noticed for my looks.
Being discounted because of my age.
Whether it is the assumption I don’t know technology because of my age or that I don’t understand something because it is new to the younger person, is happening significantly more than it ever did previously.
I am in my early 50s, which means I’ll be in the workforce for another 15 to 20 years. To me, this seems like a long time to be discounted.
Of course I have examples of this shunning outside my work, but since the majority of my time is spent at work, it’s where I have the most examples. To be fair, I notice my thinking is slower — I hate that. But, I have things to contribute.
I talk to other women in the workforce at this age. Work is not very satisfying when it gets to this point. Many can retire because they have a husband and they are fed up.
I cannot. 15 to 20 years ahead. I’m trying to wrap my head around how to be at peace with going to work, getting the paycheck and going home.
If anyone has any advice, I’d love to hear it.
Did you all make it through, “Single Awareness Day”?
Ya know, Valentine’s Day. This year I just ignored the entire day — except for getting “Love” gifts for my grands.
I didn’t wear red as in previous years; I didn’t have anxiety the week before; and I gave it no notice whatsoever.
The most thought I gave to it was when walking by the security station at my work’s front door and saw all the flower deliveries. To myself I said, “huh.”
In year’s past, I’ve dreaded it. If you are in a couple, you have such a different view. Most of my friends are either married or in long-term relationships. In fact, one just received a ring and proposal for marriage. I never thought I’d be single in my 50s, but there you go.